Confession Letter 1 : Pregnant for high profile figure; I had no choice but to abort our baby

Dear Editor,

After reading the insightful pieces by Keiron Murdoch and Bishop Browne, I felt compelled to share my own experience.

It’s a common misconception that women choose to have abortions solely out of desire; for many of us, the reality is far more complex. As one article poignantly stated, we often find ourselves caught in difficult situations.

I am someone who has gone through the experience of an abortion, and I carry a deep sense of regret for what transpired, but I felt I had no other option. I couldn’t bear the thought of my mistake leading to the unraveling of an entire family.

About three years ago, I attended a high-profile event in the U.S. with several colleagues, including some government officials.

After the formalities, we let loose and enjoyed ourselves. Perhaps I overindulged, but the truth is that alcohol isn’t the sole culprit. I woke up in the bedroom of my happily married boss, which was incredibly awkward, especially since we both have families.

We agreed that what happened there would remain private. Yet, the shame still lingers. Shortly after, I discovered I was pregnant. It was clear that my husband couldn’t be the father.

I confided in my boss, who made it clear that keeping the pregnancy wasn’t an option. I didn’t need to be told; I understood the implications.

I went to the doctor and decided to terminate the pregnancy. The thought of a scandal was unbearable, and I knew the media would sensationalize it.

I recognize that my mistakes began with drinking too much on a work trip. Yes, I chose to have an abortion, but what choice did I really have? I couldn’t jeopardize my family, nor would I want to harm his.

This is my truth.

Editors Note: 

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Have you ever had an abortion? Write to us about the circumstances that led to the pregnancy and what it was like making the decision to terminate it. How easy or difficult was it to access abortion? What are your thoughts on the abortion debate in Antigua and Barbuda? To protect your identity, you do not have to use your real name. Send your letter to [email protected]